Sunday, 13 October 2013

When Hate Reaches a Whole New Level

I am writing this post to stand up for myself once and for all. People have told me to keep quiet for the longest time. But in times like this, being quiet is no longer an easy option.
I am well aware of the people who hate my guts. Both strangers and people from the same industry as I am alike. I tried my hardest to just stay away. But all these demons just keep running back. Once and for all, I wanna say my piece. Not because I owe it to anyone reading this right now, but because I owe it to myself.
I love my job very much. I love it too much that nothing can make me stop whatever I’m doing right now.
I am a graduate of Marketing at UST. I chose to work by myself after college because I think self-employment is right for me. It has been barely 7 months since my graduation and I am able to keep myself alive with all the things I call “work”.
I make vlogs and beauty videos on Youtube—yes, I am paid for that. I admit I am not the best Michelle Phan out there, but at least I don’t try to be. I make videos which feature affordable makeup products that Filipinas can try. I review products that can be found locally. When I do make makeup videos, I just do what I can. I have not and will never claim to be a professional makeup artist because I’m not. What I am is a beauty enthusiast. In addition to those, I also make vlogs to share my life to the public, think reality TV. Yes, I know this is putting myself out there, I still chose to do it because I find joy in recording my life and perhaps one day look back at them. It’s a personal choice. A lot of people in the US do it but that doesn’t mean I am copying them. There are millions of vloggers worldwide. Such a thought won’t even cross anyone’s mind if one knows that fact.
Aside from my videos, I hold makeup workshops monthly to give interested participants a starter guide on applying makeup (basics). I am new to this as I only started July 2013 with my first 5 students. Months passed and more and more opportunities came. I now hold these workshops monthly and document them on my Youtube channel and even my blog (all my social sites actually) Just like anything else in this world, you have to start at the lowest. And I did—with my workshops. I bought affordable yet still usable mirrors for all my students to use. NONE of them complained about it. I laid out all the makeup brushes and products I own for them to be able to try them all out without hesitance. I keep my workshops fun and informal because I don’t want my students to feel any kind of intimidation. That’s just my style. Little by little I was able to upgrade my mirrors into stand mirrors which I bought from Japan Home Center (last October 12, very recently, too, I must say)—clearly much better than my former mirrors (those mirrors traveled to Davao for a makeup workshop, too, so I can’t say they didn’t help, they truly did) I am now able to afford offering free makeup brushes and meals at my own expense for my students. After finishing 6 batches of my makeup workshop I thought of giving out a promotion—celebrating the “half-year” success of my classes—and that was my PHP1,500.00 makeup classes! That ended really well yesterday. Everyone was a delight to be with.
What I’m trying to say here is, I did start at a low point but that doesn’t give anyone the right to use that against me. I am building my workshops. I am not the richest person in the world to start at the GREATEST but I did try to give the best I could. There will be more and more people holding workshops in their own right and with their own reasons. Reasons we don’t have control over. And that’s perfectly fine. Some people just need to realize and accept that.
Aside from my makeup workshops, I hold mini bazaars/selling events in cooperation with Chedelyn’s Cosmetics Collection to bring it closer to people who want it. I did this after receiving a lot of requests from my online viewers. You see, Chedelyn’s is based in Cebu City. The idea of bringing them to Manila and other cities through these mini bazaars came to mind while I was in the shower. I even tweeted about how the best business ideas come into mind when I’m in the shower about a few weeks ago. I never intended it to be a big bazaar like that of the Supersale, or the Rockwell Bazaar—what I wanted was just bring it closer to the people. Some people took it the wrong way--claiming this idea was something I stole. Yes I did steal it…from my brain cells. That’s where it came from, in the first place. My intentions were pure and clean. And it was to bring Chedelyn’s closer to those who requested it. Nothing more, nothing less. Trabaho lang, walang personalan.
The topic of working with other people in the industry—they say I’m the one with the problem, I’m the one that every other guru hates, being the reason why I don’t work with them, why I’m not included in “groups”. If you know me in real life, you will know and understand why I wholeheartedly choose to work by myself. It’s my prerogative to accept or decline projects. Just because I’m not in a particular project doesn’t mean I was kicked out. Perhaps the idea of me backing out should enter your mind. Conclusions without concrete basis are just pure crap. It’s difficult to trust people. Especially after everything I’ve been through. No one can blame me if I prefer to work alone. This isn’t a high school team-up anyway. This is real life. No one ever died choosing working alone. It’s the way some things really go. Why that is an issue for some people? I will never understand.
Who knew Instagram could be so vicious? Sure, anyone can make accounts and bash anyone if they wanted to—but only up to a certain level. You see there is a “maka-tao” and “pwede pang pagpasensyahan” level and there is also a below the belt level. I won’t be speaking out if this wasn’t about the latter.
A lot of you have already seen it by this time. And all I can say is--What kind of sick person can do all of this? Only God knows. I received hate before, but not to this extent. I somehow have the idea who is behind all of this but then again, conclusion without concrete basis is just pure crap.
I can take everything they post against me—I have people who keep my head up and my spirit strong. But don’t you dare drag my partner or anyone else especially in my family because I can’t promise I won’t take serious actions.
Keep throwing stones at me.
My Vindicator is BIGGER than any of you.
Thank you to all the people who defended me. I smile at the thought that many of my readers can go out of their way to do all that for me. I am deeply touched and will forever be thankful. I will never stop doing all the things I can—because I know in my heart that I am not dragging anyone down nor stepping on anybody.
At the end of every day, there are only a few people you can really, really trust. I am watching my back.

54 comments:

  1. oh say! we got your back on this!s stay humble and DO WHAT YOU LOVE TO DO! those bitches are just jellyyyyy jealous of what you are and what you have... xoxo There's a lot of people who loves you more than these haters wannabe

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    1. Thank you so much!!! I really appreciate it. <3

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  2. that is one very well-written blog post Ms. Say. I agree with everything you've said. Kanya kanyang trip lang yan, kaya walang basagan ng trip.. kung ayaw nila sa blog/vlog/social media accounts mo, eh di wag nila basahin/panuorin! simple as that.. wala naman baril na nakatutok sa ulo nila at pinipilit sila to view your social media accounts.. hehe.. kidding aside, you're haters can hate you forever, but it will be the poison that will kill them, not you. I envy people like you (in a good way though) who make a living out of their passion, very few can and will have the courage to do that. Nakakaaliw nga yung workshops mo eh, we were not intimidated at all kasi you are yourself, no pretensions whatsoever... :) at tama ka, your Vindicator is bigger than any of those people who throw stones at you.

    Matthew 7:1-5
    “Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you. Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? You HYPOCRITE, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye."

    Stay positive and do what you do best! God bless! :)

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    1. Thank you Jen. Thank you so so much! <3 For that quote, most especially.

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  3. I am with you all the way Miss Say. As an avid follower and admirer, I am truly proud of what you have become. You inspire me to do my best in everything. Please don't mind the haters. They are just a fraction in comparison to all the people who has become part of your life thru your vlogs, blogs etc. I for one is an example. Please continue spreading the love and more power !

    Lots of Love,
    Nina <3

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    1. Thank you Nina!!! People like you make me strong. <3

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  4. nakow mga taong walang magawa lang yun ate say keep ur chin up mas madami namang nagmamahal sayo :)

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  5. I love how strong you are Say! Those haters will only make you strive for more success!
    Some people say "Pag binato ka ng bato, batuhin mo ng tinapay" but that doesn't work all the time. Sometimes you have to fight. Show them how successful you are and that they aren't bringing you down.

    Good luck, fellow Tiger! <3

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    1. Ruthie! Thanks for always being there. I appreciate it! Fellow tiger!

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  6. I <3 u, Ms. Say! We will always be here for you. :) I agree with Ms. Nina, just don't mind your haters. I keep on telling my friends about you, how pretty and humble you are. And God is faithful, He will always be there for you. :)

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  7. inggit inggit! hahaha mga inggit kapag pinaakyat sa ulo, nakakamatay! hahahaha!!

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  8. I've been watching you since I was in college and I've seen how much you've grown over the years and I'm proud and happy and slightly jealous (of how well you're making it on your own!) at you all at the same time! Sadly, some people can't seem to handle other people's success very well. The same people also seemed to have skipped on their GMRC classes during elementary school and I can't believe some people can be super rude and envious, it's disgusting. Also, ridiculous on how others nitpick every single little thing! Kaloka! How about get a life! Haha! But always know that there always be people that will support and love you! That would include me!

    Also, since I've already written a lengthy paragraph, thanks for all the reviews! More often than not before buying anything I check if you've reviewed it then make the decision to spend or not! Haha! =)

    And kiber sa mga haters, those basic bitches can go hide behind their pathetic Instagram account! Good luck sa mararating nila sa buhay =))

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    1. Thank you for the long-time support Alex it truly means a lot to me. <3

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  9. Ate Say matagal ko na ding napansin yun na may attitude ka pero hindi yun naging enough na reason para sakin na i-hate at ijudge ka eh kase nagpapakatotoo ka lang. Hindi ka plastic, hindi ka nagpapanggap. Lahat naman tayo may imperfections eh, mas magaling lang talaga mag tago yung iba. The "sneaky ones" and you're not one of them. Hindi ka natakot na ipakita sa madaming tao kung ano ka talaga and I salute you for that. I know you are a good person, I can feel it Ate Say. So please be strong. It's better to focus on the good things. Si God nalang po ang bahala sakanila. I will always be your fan Ate Say :)

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    1. Thank you for being one of the reasons why I'm staying strong

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  10. Hi Ms.say!!! Always think that God is there alltime.. Ako tuloy nalulungkot, if ayaw nila sa yo eh d wag!. Don't you worry, Bouncer mo ako! ^___^v

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    1. Hi mellodee! I read your comment via email! Thank you so much!

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  12. Cheer up Miss Say, "People throw rocks at things that shine."

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  13. Well di ko masasabi na ok lng yan..dahil di namn talaga ok wel atlist, nailabas m n ang saloobin mo!after ng lahat ng nabasa k sa mga post nila wow grabe tlaga. Sobrang inggit tlaga un,aanihin din nila lahat ngginagawa nila sa kapwa nila sa ibng pagkakataon.

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    1. Moonlight, thank you for everything! And for always giving me motherly advice

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  14. They hate you because they hate themselves. Kung hindi mo sila inaaway, they are the ones who needs to be hated more than you do. Hindi kasi nila kaya yung ginagawa mo so walang magawa kundi ang manira na lang na akala mo ang gagaling nila. Wala naman sila kakalagyan sa mundo, Ms. Say. New follower lang ako pero nakikita ko na nakakatuwa ka.:) Do what you love to do and let those b*tches eat their asses of. You can never please anyone, might as well as do your thing and let them eat dust. :)

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    1. Thank you so much! I appreciate all the comforting words!!!

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  15. Na-sad ako bigla. Na-meet ko na kayo pareho before though mas matagal kita nakausap compared dun sa kabila, pero... Haay, di ko alam bakit kailangan pa gawing issues to mga 'to ng ibang tao. Ikaliligaya o ikapapanatag ba ng loob nila un? Nakakaloka, nakakalungkot. Hug na lang kita. >:D<

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  16. They're just jelly ate say :) let them say what they want to say, but at the end of the day, they'll be the one who'll end up frustrated. i know all of us in this thread thinks you're amazing so don't let them haters bring you down! *hug*

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  17. STAY POSITIVE!!! Maghahalloween na!!! \:D/

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    1. Hi Shane! I read your comment via email. Thank you so much.

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  19. hello say. I hope you get time to read my e-mail. :)

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  20. correct! ka ms. say nagtataka ako bat ang dami mong haters eh wala nmn mali sa ginagawa mo, alam mo ba ikaw ang una kong nakilala na pinay makeup guru sa youtube! nahanap kita kasi nghahanap ako ng review about sa mga EB matte lipstick pinanoud ko lahat ng video mo gumawa ako ng YT acct dahil sau! dami akong natutunan about sa makeup! marami akong kilalang tao na mahilig mang bash at manira sa kapwa nila nasasabi ko nlng sa sarili ko "siguro hindi sila tunay na masaya sa buhay nila, kasi kung ikaw ay tunay na masaya at kontento sa buhay mo wala k ng time para mang bash ng iba eh" ika nila,. " life is so wonderful if we know how to live". :) so stay strong ok!

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  21. Hello Say!!! Read this post on FB and I was really surprised that there are people who treats you like that. I know you're a good person. REALLY! You stayed humble and kind every time we see each other in UST! (Though we’re just batchmates) Don’t mind your haters. Stay positive and continue to help and inspire people through sharing your passion with them. And also, don’t let others affects your aspirations and passions in life (I know you never will). I know you are a very strong person. I’m here whenever you need me. I’ll pray for you! God Bless Say!! Miss you! 

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  22. hello ms. Say... I really love how honest you are to what you feel.. and that is good... Above all God knows everything... Keep positive and always acknowledge God.. <3

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  23. Keep your head up, sis. And think positive. Mapapagod din yang mga yan. Besides, there are things a lot more important to think about right now than those people. The Halloween event is only two weeks away! and we are so excited! Weeee!

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  24. i am one of your avid follower ms. say..i have seen all vids and vlogs..i loved how you made them..it`s honest..and full of effort.Mga haters talaga..wlang magawa sa buhay.Just hang in there ms.say mas marami na man kami nagmamahal sayo..more power and God bless..

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  25. inggit lang sila sayo ate say.. mga walang magawa sa buhay yang mga yan.. kaya ikaw pinagiintiresan.. keep doing what you want ate say as long as you are not hurting others and putting others down .. hayaan mo na mga inggitera jan.. :))

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  27. Continue what your doing miss Say dont let that stop you, i saw that page and ilan lang naman haters mo yung iba gawagawa pa ng IG account para lang me masabi. Hehe . I idolize you and i love your vids its like my own teleserye or beautyserye :) like they say "Peoplw throw rocks at things that shine" I hope you can surpass this . Goodluck po and looking forward to meet you someday
    From Lei ♥

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  29. Dear Ms. Say, I'm glad that you still remain strong despite having those people who are pushing you to your limit. Keep being strong Ms. Say, keep doing what you love, enjoy doing what you want and as long as you think that you are on the right track and you are not stepping other people, nothing really matters. Haters will always be present. I don't know why life offered them to be there. I'm not saying all but some, those people who do those "paninira" ways just don't get it why others become successful and others do not, why the people they would want to be in the same place as you are are not there. We may not know each other, and you may not know all your other subscribes personally, but we all know the effort and the time that you are spending just to give us, your subscribers the things that we would want to see, the things that we enjoy and interests us. Keep being yourself Ms. Say and achieve those dreams that you want. It's hard not to get affected but, you can do it! You are stronger than what those kinda' mean people think. More success and blessings!
    -always, Chlè

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  30. isipin mo nalang marami parin ang nagmamahal at naniniwala sayo ;)
    Cheer up Say! nakarating na sa Europe ang beauty mo ^_^

    <3

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  31. Di bale, Jarmaine nalang peg mo!! Better be alone than with people in the industry who would just use you to climb up the ladder of success. Dito lang kami for you. Basta always keep your feet on the ground :)

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  32. Hi Say! I just found out about this now and I am so glad that I never saw this instagram account or else my blood pressure would rise and steam will come out of my nose! I admire you for all the things you've done. You are a very independent and strong woman. Keep your head up and keep doing what you're doing. Haters are gonna hate and be miserable forever. Always here for you. Love ya! <3

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  33. Stay pretty miss say! Isipin mo na lang madami ka nai-inspire! :)))

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  34. u know what.. miss say, because of you I am more inspired while watching your videos.

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  35. After reading your blog, I wanna give you a comfort hug Say. You've been punished to something that you dont deserve, all I can say is that I am one of your subbies that will never cease to support you. God bless you Say!

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  36. OMG Say! Sorry that you have to go through this painful situation. We can never please anyone. Just keep doing what you're doing because many people can be really cruel. It is clearly that people wants to bring you down because they are jealous of you, and they cannot be like you. Just remember, there are more of us that loves you and forget the haters because they cannot do any better in life. God Bless you! <3


    Hope to see you soon! :)

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  37. A little late reading this... I don't know the story behind this. I just gather that you get a lot of flak. I hope you're feeling better.

    I hope someday you can find people who you can people you can work with... independence can achieve a lot of things, but if you're able to work interdependently with other people, you can achieve more. All successful businessmen had mentors and peers who helped them along the way.

    I admire that you took the road less traveled. Not many are brave enough to do that. Just continue improving. I think you will be successful :)

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  38. I was waiting for your next blogpost for days (weeks) now, when I came through this particular post. I felt sad, There really are people out there who are gonna waste time bashing and dragging other people down. Just keep your head up Ate say because really,you inspire a lot of people. You are a model, a good example. From the way you speak, act and deal with these people, its obvious, that your parents have raised you well. Im pretty sure they're so proud of you right now. I actually idolize you for being so independent and firm and persistent in chasing your dreams. I wanna be that kind of girl and I will be that girl. Keep improving yourself everyday! I sew love you! <3

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